A Piece of tragedy
I don’t like to call my medical condition (psoriasis and arthritis) and my near death experience a tragedy but I labeled as such because it appears tragic in the face of adversity.
Tragic, there’s no cure for my disease.
Tragic, to hear the doctors say I might have cancer.
Tragic, to see my love ones suffer in pain as I went through hell.
Tragic, I almost died.
is defined as an event causing great suffering, destruction, and distress. Sometimes it’s difficult to bear, but it has been a blessing in disguise. I have more compassion for those around me. It constantly humbles me and reminds me that I can’t go through life without the help of God.
I’ve worn my tragedies as an armor of strength and courage. From what seemed hopeless and impossible turned to beautiful miracles and success.
This is my Journey so far...
What got me through my toughest days
FAITH-sees the invisible believes the unbelievable and receives the impossible. Doubt sees the obstacles. Faith sees the way. Doubt sees the darkest night. Faith sees the day. Doubt dreads to take a step. Faith soars on high. Doubt questions “who believes?” Faith answers, “I”. It is when you cannot see but believe and take that leap of faith, only then you’ll see great things unfold. God is Awesome.
HOPE-a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen. When there is hope you don’t cling onto depression, sadness, and despair, but you press onto a greater purpose. What you are feeling now is only temporary. It is not time that will heal all wounds, it is the awakening of your mind and soul in which you choose to grow. The acronym goes H.O.P.E, Hold On, Pain Ends, so dear friends hold on for there will be brighter days ahead.
LOVE- Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres -1 Corinthians 13:4-7. In trials, never allow the pain to callous your heart because it is love that changes us. How can we receive and give love when we build walls? In order to grow out of tragedies we must remain open to love. My professor once told me he’s never felt so alive when he felt the most unbearable pain when his father died. It’s true, you’re most alive when you feel pain. I know it sounds crazy but that just means your human and you need love in the midst of darkness. You’ll learn to love every part of the process.
"You can't connect the dots looking forward you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something: your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well worn path," Steve Jobs.
PATIENCE- In the season of waiting, I’ve built a foundation of strong roots, similar to a tree. The most oldest, strongest, biggest trees are the ones that have grown roots so deep that any season it goes through, it never withers, falls, or dies. The leaves may change colors, some seasons it may not have ripen fruits, but it still remains strong. If the process didn’t require a wait time or taught me how to be patient, I would not have grown a strong foundation. Patience is the process in which we build character. I've learned that God is testing my faith. Faith doesn't grow unless it is put to the test. Having faith in the process of waiting, gave me no option but to rely on God's timing. It is definitely hard to wait but nothing worth having comes easy.
KINDNESS- in every situation or circumstance remain kind for every person is fighting a tough battle.
Triumph- GREAT VICTORY
In each of us we all have a tragic story to tell but have you remained defeated or did you emerge victoriously? Your tragedies does not define you, neither does your success, but your character, your heart, and who you’ve become in those circumstances is what makes you.